11:48, 12-24

So the presents are finally finished being wrapped. Everything is sitting under the tree looking lovely. Had a good chat with mom and had a couple drinks. Man it feels good to be able to play my piano again. The keys could almost cry over this melody. Feels good to have something again. Looking at the Xmas tree almost makes my spirit choke up. Everything just suddenly hit me. All the hard work might not have translated into how i preferred things look, but I’d be a fool to complain. Went homeless for a month. Thousands of dollars spent. In between packing, moving, working endless hours thanks to holiday season and managing to do it all on no sleep. I’m surprised I’ve been able to stay sane. Times like this wish I could hug something or someone. Just a little relaxation from adulting. This is a plan that was years in the making. We’ve come a long way but the mission has finally been accomplished. As i reflect on my life while looking at this beautiful tree, I can only say thank you. It was all worth it. The most worthy Xmas gift a family can ever receive, a little peace of mind. Happy holidays to all. And to all a good night…



10:55, 12-5 

My Dark Company

​Sometimes my thoughts keep me up at night. Simply to force me to acknowledge that they do exist. They always decide to get restless when my brain wants to relax. It’s as if they just need somebody to talk to. And they won’t let me sleep without having a brief conversation. And so there we lay in bed at night. That’s when the silent shyness takes over. The irony is that they leave me alone during the times of the day when I actually want someone to talk to. When I need acknowledgement. Now that it’s bedtime here we lie awake. Not quite insomnia. Not boredom. Can’t be loneliness. Just me and my dark company…